So Tuesday was a glorious day. The weather, the community, the acro! I am still tingling from the hype a day later. But, it didn’t start out that way. The morning was filled with anxiety, tension, stress in my shoulders, sore wrists, difficult communication…and various other things encapsulating my brain space with negativity.
Luckily, the day I had planned involved pretty much nothing but yoga. As soon as I stepped onto my mat the energy within me began to shift. My mood began to lift. I started jiving with the moment, no longer pushing for what was happening next or dwelling on what happened a moment ago.. No, I was simply being with what was in that exact space, in that exact moment. It was beautiful.
During our time at the acro jam, I noticed that I liked being the base. I’m good at basing. I have strong, stable legs. I am calm and ready for whatever instability my flyer is going through. I am a good base because I am a giver. I like to support the people I love. I am there for them before they even know they need me. The people I love trust me and rely on to be there for them. I am a good, strong, stable base; on and off the yoga mat. But in order to be the best base I can be, I also need to receive.
My anxiety and stress that morning had really nothing to do with the circumstances that triggered my emotional response. My anxiety and stress was about the fact that I had only gotten 5 hours of sleep the night before, I hadn’t taken the time to properly feed myself, I hadn’t taken a rest day in over 3 weeks. More importantly, I hadn’t communicated to the people I love, and who love me, that I needed those things. I needed (I need) to receive the love and support that I show. I needed and always need to keep open that clear channel of communication. I need transparency.
I am learning in order to be the best base/best giver that I can be, I also need to learn to fly.